Thursday, February 7, 2019

Sometimes our will....


With Valentine’s Day fast approaching, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately. Probably not the things you think I’m thinking about. Not love or hearts or flowers. I’m thinking about brain lesions. And hands that won’t work properly. And the tingling and weird pain that runs down my legs and arms. On Valentine’s Day 2014, I was thinking about all that then, too, and a lot more.
That was the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.  
If you’ve been with me for a while, then you know that I’ve had health issues for a minute. I told you guys about the tumor on my pituitary, about my Trigeminal Neuralgia, a broken neck from years ago. You know that I’ve had sucky things. I didn’t tell you about the MS for many reasons, the most important because I think I was still in denial. The less people knew, the less real it was. The more I could pretend that I was still “normal” and do whatever I wanted. My author group at the time was a Godsend through this, but even they didn’t know everything that was going on with my health. And I’ve come to learn that MS doesn’t care if people know or not :) I kept having exacerbations and started running out of excuses. 
So.
My name is Shelly and I have Multiple Sclerosis. And it sucks. And it’s scary to think about the future. And it’s not fair to my family. And there are days when I just. Can’t. Even. Anything. And it’s painful and frustrating and freaking inconvenient. I’m a wife, a mom to two teenage boys, a writer who uses her hands for her job, and a thousand other things. I don’t have time to have MS! :) Why can’t my body understand this and get it together. 
We travel with my husband’s job and move around a lot, at least four or five times a year. We sold our house in Florida last year so we could travel full-time and it has been a-maz-ing. We’re in Montana at the moment and hope to stay for a long time. We LOVE it here. Just moved from Pennsylvania and before that was Maryland. Florida was brutally hot and I was pretty miserable there. Moving has helped with my MS a little, I think. When we lived in Florida full-time, I was having more exacerbations than I was not having them.
I had to cancel so many book signings and events, and missed release dates, because of MS. It’s hard for me to plan anything. I wake up and that’s how I know how I’ll feel. I felt so awful for letting people down and not keeping my promises. So, I had to stop making them. For my own sanity and dignity. I know you guys hate that I don’t do release dates anymore, and I’m sorry, I get it, but it’s just not in the cards for me any longer. I know myself, I know my symptoms, I know my family and our schedule, and sometimes writing is absolutely impossible. Just typing that sentence makes me sad. But I wanted you to know, I’m not NOT writing. :) Since we should be here in Montana for a while, I’m going to try to get myself on a more set writing schedule and make sure to let you know what’s going on. I still think about my characters every day and write down notes for later. I’m constantly thinking about them and their stories, so that was never the problem. But Trouble says something in Undeniably Fated that fits with me pretty perfectly. Sometimes our will is stronger than our might. I am working, slowly, but I’m working and I PROMISE these books (the books listed on my website that you’re waiting on) are coming. I PROMISE. I PROMISE.
Will you have Undeniably Fated tomorrow. No. Will you have it next month. Absolutely not. Will it have it by the end of the year? I will try my hardest, but this is NOT a release date. I do have to have surgery on my neck in the next couple months, non-MS related, so there’s that, too. 
So, that’s where I’ve been and where I’m at. Every day is its own struggle of some kind, but I’m chugging along. And most days, I’m okay. The main point of all this is to reassure you that books are coming! I may take a little hiatus here or there, but when I’m able, I’ll come back and get to it. I just hope you’ll stick with me, guys. I know it’s not ideal, but we’ll make it work! :) 
I adore you all as much as I did the first time someone picked up my book. I know that reading time is precious and I appreciate that you took the time on me, each time. I’m sorry that you can’t get your story the way you should, but you’ll get it. I promise. Thanks for always, always, always being awesome, always being there, always being ready and willing to dive into your next story. I’d love the honor. One day soon. :)

Best wishes and happy endings,
Shelly Crane

Thursday, November 1, 2018

Undeniably Fated - Teaser Thursday

    




   “Inch by inch, day by day, we drift to our end.” His stunned expression was quickly becoming adorable. I raised my hand. “Lit major, with a splash of civil architectural engineering on the side.”

     A crooked smile graced that beautiful face as he looked into my eyes. “Well that explains everything.” 

Undeniably Fated
A Significance Novel
Coming Later

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

An Undeniably Fated Teaser Tuesday!



Teaser Tuesday : Undeniably Fated

a significance novel 



“Sometimes you have to have a little faith in people.”
“People suck.”
“Not all. There are people in this world who genuinely want to be better and try hard to be. You have to have faith that they will.”
"Oh, and people always do what they say they will. Do you even remember Terminus! People cannot be trusted." 



Coming soonerish rather than laterish. Probably.

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Undeniably Teaser Tuesday!



Undeniably Fated
a significance series novel



   “So the guy cut me off,” she said animatedly, “and then started yelling about how he was videoing me for his YouTube road rage channel!”
   “Okay,” I took her shoulders in my hands and turned her to me, “yikes. And yikes. But the point is that you still made it here on time. Yay!”
   She rolled her eyes. “There’s not always a silver lining. Sometimes things just suck.”
   I smiled and turned her toward the kids. “What a magical way to look at life, Katie. Now go change young impressionable lives.”
   I pushed her toward the kids waiting for their lesson to start in the far corner of Uncle Caleb’s Eastside center. She went with a sigh that could only come from a scorned teenage girl.
   It had been five months since the accident and I was driving again, working again, being me again. I no longer used a brace, but the little “wimp”, I had retained.
   Wimp stood for wimpy limp.
   Thanks, Uncle Kyle.
   He said my cute little limp was the wimpiest limp he’d ever seen. I knew he was just trying to make me feel better about it, but it worked all the same.
   “How you feelin’, Ember?”
   I looked up at Uncle Caleb as he came to my side. “I’m peachy.”
   “Mmhhmm,” he muttered. “I know a liar when I see one, sweetheart.”
   “That’s just because Aunt Mags is here.” I waved at her as she looked at me over the kids’ heads doing some computer game. “You stealing her ability doesn’t count, cheater.”
   “Oh, I think it probably does.”
   I gave him a sideline grin. “I’m…okay. What are you both doing on this side of town anyway? This is my jurisdiction.”
   “Making the rounds before we go to London.”
   My heart clinched painfully. For him. And Seth and Ava.
   “Yeah. Seth and Ava can take anything they throw at them.”
   He nodded, looking at the floor. “They have to.”


Coming Soonish!
Mwah! 

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Undeniably Fated Tease!




Working on Undeniably Fated today! So late but coming. More soon!

#SignificanceSeries #EmberAndTrouble

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Teaser.....Wednesday

 UNDENIABLY FATED
A Significance Series Novel
TEASER

        "I was supposed to be the one who got—"
        "And I was supposed to be married to Ryan Reynolds, but it didn't work out that way." I looked over at Landon. "Sorry, baby, but it's Ryan. You understand?"
       He was grinning, shaking his head. "As long as you understand that the same goes for me and Betty White." He got a faraway look. "I bet that woman can cook."
       I rolled my eyes with a laugh. "If Betty shows up and asks for your hand and my blessing, I'll concede."

COMING SPRING